The Title?

By now, if you're like me, you may be wondering (or perhaps not): what's up with the title of your blog? Yeah. Truth is, up until a last week, I really had no idea. As I sat on my bike, suffering, sucking wind, and watching the wheels in front of me pull away, I was unceremoniously dropped. I thought, "well, it was the best I could do." It's a mantra that I repeat in my daily life; at work, at home, in my mind. It's an excuse. It's an outright lie. It's the kind of thing, that if someone were to say to me, I would say "bullsh*t!" I know I can do better, I choose not to.

My chest nearly exploding, legs shattered, I drop into a lower gear and try to recover. On the road ahead, the group was splintered by the relentless pace and others are dropped. I start to recover. I start to think, "I can do better." Back into a bigger gear, I lift my cadence and focus on gobbling up the stragglers. One by one, we are re-integrated (though not completely) and my revelation is complete. Perhaps I should adopt the new title. I can do better.

The simple power of suggestion makes a huge difference. Wanting to do better and holding myself accountable have already begun to show results. Am I ready to change my title? Not yet. I kind of like the old one. At the time, it was born of my writing and lack of a better title. I'm not a writer so I'll tell my stories in the best way that I can, hence it's the best that I could do.

My parents often told me that if I do my best, then that is all that anyone could ever ask of you. Anyone except yourself. It is always easy to second guess yourself afterwards. "Was it really my best?" "Could I have done better?" "Maybe I should have done..." But if you ask yourself to do your best, and then at the moment when you feel you've done your best, tell yourself that you can do better, you probably will. Time to change the title? Nah. For now, it's the best I could do.